I don’t want to do it
Well, I do want to do it, but later
I just don’t feel like it
In fact I’ve never felt like it
I’m not sure what “feeling like it” would actually feel like
But I know it’s not like this
Because I REALLY DON’T FEEL LIKE IT
If I do it right now, it will not feel like feeling like it is supposed to feel
Can I do something else instead?
There are other things I usually never feel like doing
But SUDDENLY they seem like a great idea
I could clean out that closet! I could wash the dishes! I could catch up on my email!
Then I’ll finally be organized
And maybe I’ll feel like doing it
Or maybe tomorrow
Because I really need a treat right now
I’ve been here before
I can’t just reward myself for procrastinating
It’s like I’m training myself to postpone stuff longer and longer
“SIT! Good brain”
What if I just… did it?
Even though I don’t want to?
What if I just got started?
I’m doing it!
I’m actually doing it!
It’s really not so bad after all
Not sure why I thought it would be such a big deal
But I sure wish I’d started sooner
Look at me, getting it done
Well, alrighty then.
I've been working with chronic disorganization, squalor, and hoarding for over 20 years. I'm also a marathon runner who was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and thyroid disease 17 years ago.