Woke up this morning
Seriously, you tend to notice that more, moment of clarity each and every morning, Wow, I made it, 45 seconds of stillness before Symptom O the Day pops up Two very rough nights, barely sleeping at all, doctor says I have a lung infection and I certainly believe him, this is the worst my chest has felt for the duration, or, well, ever Check email, all the labs came in, very funny moment when I discovered they had tested me for treponema pallidum, they thought it’s more likely I somehow picked up syphilis than complications of COVID, snort, have it your way doctor Imagine that, all panels NORMAL, good to know but again, probably more expensive to do full nutrition work-up than start with assumption that coronavirus is romping around in there Didn’t occur to me right away, but nobody checked my temperature, pulse, blood pressure or did any kind of swab, no stethoscope, no ordinary steps of doctor checkup, don’t blame them, I don’t want to touch me either Doctor emailed back about chest x-ray, “peribronchial thickening,” did not mention COVID, prescribed azithromycin, consistent with news reports I wonder if my friends got amoxicillin because azithromycin is in short supply? Or some other reason? They got 10 days, I get 5, whoa! Big cannonball New complication, how to get them pills Pharmacy 3 miles away, for regular people, COVID pharmacy back across town, hour round trip, twice in 18 hours, no thank you, I am tired, also lovely friend is working Can’t send hubby or nice friend to normal pharmacy, they are screening over there, both still QT, do not want to wait several days for mail, especially over weekend Hmm. Who can I bother for this favor? ADVICE: Follow along, think out your delivery options in your friend group now before you need to, hard to think straight when you are ill, also be kind and think who you would do this for Thinking through, almost everyone who offered to help me is either working, doing childcare, OR BOTH, or over 60 Scrolling through text messages, reading friends’ names, oh dear Aha! Realized our dog walker friend would totally do it, check if she is in town, if not her then another couple of self-employed friends with no kids Meanwhile I am sacked out like a jellyfish, if a jellyfish was on fire inside Got arrangements made, you’re a lifesaver, also I will pay you for your time, took her an hour, then they couldn’t even find my stuff, this is like the plot of Balto complete with faithful canine companions Precious little white bag, never thought a $9 antibiotic would feel more impressive than a new iPhone, or a gold brick, no 20th century without antibiotics though, don’t agree fight me Maybe later Took two, had been fighting nap waiting for sled dogs, crashed out for an hour, I believe sleep helps healing and helps any kind of medicine do its work in peace Woke up dizzy, bonking, feeling wildly ill and disoriented, head spinning Got up, made it from bed to couch, hubby asking, How are you feeling? Don’t look so good Made me a big ol’ sandwich and I started pulling myself together Realized chest was actually feeling better, okay, did not think doctor believed me but it looks like he was right about the antibiotic, even one dose seems to have helped Now the impossible: pull my socks up, promises to keep, werewolf woman on camera in a few hours, big event of the season Oh lord A hundred people looking forward to seeing living proof that it is possible to survive coronavirus, they need this, spokesmodel time This would probably be much more convincing in 5 more days Come on modern medicine, I need a miracle, okay, second choice, cosmetics Took me two hours to shower, take break, get dressed, take break, dry hair, take break Approx half gallon of spackle and mascara When you see someone looking camera ready, now you know, that person may in fact have a lung infection, surprise Hello everybody! Did my role, C+ job, doing okay then truly stupid technical glitch, embarrassed myself, feeling like I got unfair credit for being an invalid, swoop in like a seagull and get credit for everyone else’s weeks of hard work Then I remember how much everyone needs distractions right now, bits of normality, how much we need each other and to see smiling faces of friends Rapidly started decompensating, started with hands shaking, oh dear I think I’m running a fever, lungs burning again, had to take a break Then my sinuses started to explode again, had to keep turning camera off to have sneezing fits, face getting red, having a tough time sitting up, almost done Made it to the end like a professional, how often are performers doing this? Putting on a show with flu or food poisoning or migraine or sprained ankle, I bet all the time Everyone applauded for me, made me cry, this is what I always wanted, to motivate and inspire The Girl Who Lived Something bigger than just myself, triumph of human spirit, humanity will beat this alien trash, total waste of carbon that is coronavirus, we will do this together Remember that we love each other, can’t do this alone, join hands my friends Comments are closed.
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AuthorI've been working with chronic disorganization, squalor, and hoarding for over 20 years. I'm also a marathon runner who was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and thyroid disease 17 years ago. This website uses marketing and tracking technologies. Opting out of this will opt you out of all cookies, except for those needed to run the website. Note that some products may not work as well without tracking cookies. Opt Out of CookiesArchives
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